Friday, September 3, 2010

When a picture is worth one thousand words

This photo of my Dad and me was taken on the day that I thought I'd never get better. The day that I asked to be hospitalized. The day that I proclaimed I couldn't live "like this". I swore I'd never let it be seen again, but I want you to see it.  I want you to know where I recovered from.  It was Thanksgiving 2007.














This photo was taken Christmas of that same year, just four weeks later, 5 weeks into treatment for PPD.



This photo was taken last month at Disney World, just one month shy of my son's 3rd birthday.














There is hope. You will get better. This is my proof.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Incredible courage, incredible insight. God is good! Thank you for showing everyone what hope and wellness look like and thank you for continuing to spread the word, Amber.

Sera said...

Absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for the visual. It is really powerful. The after pictures have such a joyous "glow" to them, even if that sounds a little cheesy - that's just what I see in them. I look at pictures of myself before I got help, and there's such an emptiness in my eyes that I couldn't see until I got better. I look back and think MAN, that was not me. Thank you so much for the hope that you offer women and their families.

Adrian said...

Cause I know, I know exactly what you mean.

Kimberly said...

Amber you are gorgeous! Thank you for being there for us moms and showing us that we can do it!! You give us all so much hope. Thank you!

depressionsux said...

This is the best post for PPD fighters that I have EVER seen.

The proof is in the pudding, and you share it with everyone, which is so appreciated!!

Maura said...

This brought tears to my eyes! Thanks for being brave enough to share!!!

Andrea (ace1028) said...

You are BEAUTIFUL, Momma. Thanks for sharing this and reminding ALL moms out there that there is always hope. {Hugs} to you for being so open about your experience.

Blair@HeirtoBlair said...

You are beyond beautiful.

& I have such similar pictures. I just look empty in so many photos.

Amber Koter-Puline said...

Thank you, for your support of my sharing this very personal (albeit short) post. It took a while for me to be okay with looking at, let alone posting for the world to see, this photo, but now I view it as cause for celebration...thanks for sharing that with me!

Emily said...

Thank you so much for posting this. It made me cry but also realise I can get out of this. Sometimes I just get so tired... its nice to be reminded there is real life on the other side.

Anonymous said...

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

baby gifts said...

Hi, thank you for sharing your PPD experience with us. I'm sure this will serve as an inspiration for those new moms who are suffering from postpartum depression now.

Rachel said...

Loved this! What a transformation. I hope that as I look back at my pictures going through PPD and coming out on the other side that the change from pain to joy is evident as well. I'll have to dig them up...

Thank you!

rebecca said...

ugh I probably have a picture just like that. I did not end up hospitalized (although I asked) but ended up on meds with a shrink and a therapist and was able to get through it w/ the help of my family. Looking at your photo I can feel the dark emptiness that I felt after the birth of my first child. So glad you made it through.